[The screen, filled with colorful font and cute pictures, is probably one of the more mocking things Chikusa thinks he's seen in his life.]
[Maybe it's less the screen, and more that it's a representative of his own inner complications which he's, as usual, kept locked away out of sight from even the rest of the group. Since he was a child, all he needed was Ken and Mukuro-sama. As he shifted into adolescence, MM and Dokuro became part of the group. It was still fine. It was still, at their core, them- Kokuyo being their new name.]
[No one else is needed. Not as far as outsiders are concerned. Despite knowing this perfectly logical fact, Chikusa is alarmed to have found himself gaining an interest in someone else.]
[Just a cashier at a store he regularly goes to when they need actual food of some sort that isn't gum or whatever dead animal Ken has managed to sink his teeth into.]
[He'd suffocated the feelings the second he'd noticed their presence, but Chikusa is well versed in emotions. It's very hard to actually destroy them. The best one can do- what he's done for years- is keep them from reaching the surface where other people can see.]
[It's a method that never actually disposes of emotions.]
[Chikusa has never stopped being mildly annoyed of this fact.]
[Regardless, it's something he doesn't know what to do with now that he has it. The sensible thing would be to get knowledge and advice from another source. Normally, he'd go to Mukuro-sama, or one of the others, but in this case...]
[So. Here he is.]
[It's an internet forum, since simple web searching has proved to be not as effective as he'd like. Nothing that really required anything indepth. The name he goes with is Kurēn. The profile, he completes with the bare minimum of facts because it would bother him not to. There aren't any lies, because he is due for high school soon and he is a boy and he does like quiet forested places (on account of living in the middle of nowhere)... But it's obviously just with more than a few facts omitted. The profile he fills out could belong to anyone.]
[Only then, satisfied and with some of his well hidden aggravation worked out, does he make a post in the advice section.]
Kurēn I recently gained romantic feelings for someone. I am not sure if I want them. It's not a matter of that person. I just think that a relationship of any kind would be troublesome.
There's no way to make an emotion like that stop, is there?
I'm not sure what I should do now that I feel this way.
[There. That's good enough as a starting point. It's only taken around half an hour, which is something. He quickly logs out of both the site and the library computer, and goes to head back home.]
[The next day, he comes back to check if there's been any answers. Eventually, they're going to have to stop by that store again, after all. It has the best prices.]
Fishing
[Maybe it's less the screen, and more that it's a representative of his own inner complications which he's, as usual, kept locked away out of sight from even the rest of the group. Since he was a child, all he needed was Ken and Mukuro-sama. As he shifted into adolescence, MM and Dokuro became part of the group. It was still fine. It was still, at their core, them- Kokuyo being their new name.]
[No one else is needed. Not as far as outsiders are concerned. Despite knowing this perfectly logical fact, Chikusa is alarmed to have found himself gaining an interest in someone else.]
[Just a cashier at a store he regularly goes to when they need actual food of some sort that isn't gum or whatever dead animal Ken has managed to sink his teeth into.]
[He'd suffocated the feelings the second he'd noticed their presence, but Chikusa is well versed in emotions. It's very hard to actually destroy them. The best one can do- what he's done for years- is keep them from reaching the surface where other people can see.]
[It's a method that never actually disposes of emotions.]
[Chikusa has never stopped being mildly annoyed of this fact.]
[Regardless, it's something he doesn't know what to do with now that he has it. The sensible thing would be to get knowledge and advice from another source. Normally, he'd go to Mukuro-sama, or one of the others, but in this case...]
[So. Here he is.]
[It's an internet forum, since simple web searching has proved to be not as effective as he'd like. Nothing that really required anything indepth. The name he goes with is Kurēn. The profile, he completes with the bare minimum of facts because it would bother him not to. There aren't any lies, because he is due for high school soon and he is a boy and he does like quiet forested places (on account of living in the middle of nowhere)... But it's obviously just with more than a few facts omitted. The profile he fills out could belong to anyone.]
[Only then, satisfied and with some of his well hidden aggravation worked out, does he make a post in the advice section.]
Kurēn
I recently gained romantic feelings for someone. I am not sure if I want them. It's not a matter of that person. I just think that a relationship of any kind would be troublesome.
There's no way to make an emotion like that stop, is there?
I'm not sure what I should do now that I feel this way.
[There. That's good enough as a starting point. It's only taken around half an hour, which is something. He quickly logs out of both the site and the library computer, and goes to head back home.]
[The next day, he comes back to check if there's been any answers. Eventually, they're going to have to stop by that store again, after all. It has the best prices.]