[The words still feel as though they're fresh on his lips when he awakens, heart pounding in his chest. Already, he can feel himself regretting the promise he'd made, but what can he do? It's been done.]
[Best he can, he goes through the motions of his life as though nothing has changed. He does his duties as a priest, deafens his ears to demons he exorcises, and tries to fill his life as best he can by venturing out more. Occasionally, he sits in public places and idly sketches things out. Sometimes it even draws people to speaking with him.]
[And.... every night, best he can, he practices touching himself- testing pleasure on his own, but never letting himself reach that edge where he might come. It's mastery over his own flawed body, he tells himself, trying to extend how long he can last more and more. If nothing else, he's relatively sure he's getting better at it.]
[But not better enough to be more confident when he finds himself awakening in a dream again, well aware of the reasons why. Swallowing, he pushes himself up searching for sight of the demon.]
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[The words still feel as though they're fresh on his lips when he awakens, heart pounding in his chest. Already, he can feel himself regretting the promise he'd made, but what can he do? It's been done.]
[Best he can, he goes through the motions of his life as though nothing has changed. He does his duties as a priest, deafens his ears to demons he exorcises, and tries to fill his life as best he can by venturing out more. Occasionally, he sits in public places and idly sketches things out. Sometimes it even draws people to speaking with him.]
[And.... every night, best he can, he practices touching himself- testing pleasure on his own, but never letting himself reach that edge where he might come. It's mastery over his own flawed body, he tells himself, trying to extend how long he can last more and more. If nothing else, he's relatively sure he's getting better at it.]
[But not better enough to be more confident when he finds himself awakening in a dream again, well aware of the reasons why. Swallowing, he pushes himself up searching for sight of the demon.]